I’LL BE.. I realized what a bittersweet song it really is.

I’LL BE..

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated,
I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I’ll Be your cryin’ shoulder
I’ll Be love suicide
I’ll Be better when I’m older
I’ll Be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You’re my survival,
you’re my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated,
I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I’ll Be your cryin’ shoulder
I’ll Be love suicide
I’ll Be better when I’m older
I’ll Be the greatest fan of your life

I’ve dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said

I’ll Be your cryin’ shoulder
I’ll Be love suicide
I’ll Be better when I’m older
I’ll Be the greatest fan of your life



um, does anyone realize that this is NOT a happy song? It starts out perfectly lovely - he’s saying how mesmerizing she is - but then he starts in about gallows and whatnot. I mean, I guess it’s sort of happy in the sense that he’s like “I can do this when I’m older.” The way I see it, he’s coming out of a pretty big depression (”fought my way back from the dead”), and part of it is due to her constant support (”remembering the things that you said”). He’s not ready for a co-dependent relationship yet, though. These things take time, folks. He wants to love her right now as she should be loved, knows that right now he can’t give her everything she needs and deserves.

I mean this song is totally about needing to love that person the way they should be loved but knowing you cant untill you get older. “I’ll be better when im older”. He is saying that he could soo easily be in love but it just isnt happening the way it should. Ive always loved this song but when i heard it on the radio the other day the meaning of it just clicked in my head. I had a guy that was just like this before. and I still love him but it just cant be…


The way I interpreted the chorus is he’ll be her crying shoulder in more of a friendly way since they can’t be together, and because of this he’ll kill off that feeling of wanting to be with her just so that he can be her crying shoulder (love’s suicide). When he’s older he knows he’ll be better; could mean his depression will get better, or that his heartache resulting from love’s suicide won’t be as bad. Since they couldn’t be together, he’ll be the greatest fan of her life, which unfortunately will not involve him. Fans watch someone from a distance, as he will do.
In the third verse, they’re in bed together and he explains that the rain is falling angry on his roof, almost as if the rain is mad that they can’t be together. On the other hand, he knows that without her he would be dead. He knows that he can love again and that his love is not dead.
In the bridge of the song, he admits that he’s been on the verge of death (dropped out, burned up), but he fought his way back from the dead. He then again reveals that she is the reason he is alive, because he tuned in to life, he was turned on again because of all the encouragement that she gave him.


After reading the bridge, you read the chorus again and it is clear again that since they can’t be together he’ll be love’s suicide to just be her crying shoulder. And ends the song by repeating that he’ll be the greatest fan of her life, because he is thankful that she was able to give him life, even if he is JUST a fan of hers..


I finally understand this song. Kinda does match.

What's meant to be will always find a way.

So maybe he wants her,

and maybe he doesn't,

but she'll never know if she never tries,

so she's going out on a limb.

She's praying for the best,

but prepared for the worst,

this is one blow her heart can take.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free. I let him go and be free. I will allow God's will to move in our lives.

Letting go is having courage to let go and accept the fact if that person comes back or not

What's meant to be will always find a way.

But, dear please be remember I'm praying for you.

I love you so much

where ever your happy so am I

I love you Timothy

goodmornyt.

....

rawr. So get this just got home and what a dumb thing. Sure its a movie and everything but WTH i have to dye my hair blonde & buy contactlens? WTH? Then i wouldnt be mem anymore right? and the payment is 1,200? and i have to wear my own FORMAL clothes.. duh like i have any. DE NA.. none. Also, i have to bring my own props? and he doesnt know where the shooting is? wth is that? urgh just a waste of time. In God's time..

Hay.

I'll blog later

I am so not in the mood.

rawr

gr

miss you timothy :P

sparkles shimmer

okay so its afternoon already. Everyone is getting dressed coz i am going to meet my talent scout he's from Star cinema. HE wants to put me as a paextra sa isang movie. i hope makakpasok ako kasi we need the money pang bayd ko sana sa dorm.. para hnde mhrpan c mama.. :D

last night.. i dreamt about Tim and zeph..
nagnuod daw kmi ng movie tpos ng cine and we went to the beach..
:D

I'll be back later aaudtion na ako ee.. waaaa
prayers!!


TTFN

how about a little sunshine?

What a day a rather quiet an oddball day to be exact. Well, I had Mcdo with kuya jhepoy today which was of course fun. But, when i came home. I had like i have no clue what to call it. It was like i was totally drained. I mean it. urgh. Also today, i didnt get to talk with Tim. Boohuu so sad. LOL.. nako but thats not really that important.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder... Or forgetful .-Peter Pan

(**OH yeah did I tell you that the peter pan thing reminds me of Stephen**)

Speaking of Stephen I wonder how he is. The last time we talked he asked why I loved Tim. Why Tim and not him. Why he was doing evrything when Tim does nothing and yet Tim has my heart. BTW did I tell you he gave me ring? yeah a ring. Also a teddybear. sigh. too much i know right? its sweet but, its too much. So i told him. And then he tolded me a bed time story of Peter Pan and that was the last time. I hope he's okay. Anyways, college is coming up I'm sure he'll forget me.

Wana know a secret?

Secret #1:

I hate how he can make me fall for him,even if i haven't talked to him in forever.

No matter where you are,

no matter where your life may take you,

& no matter who you're with, you'll always have a piece of my heart.

It's late I should sleep.

but the thing is..

i can't even if i wanted to.

When i close my eyes all i see is YOU

YOU & your braced face smile

OH WHAT THE HECK.

HE WONT READ THIS ANYWAYS LOL

I MISS YOU TIMOTHY SO

grrr... rawr!
shimmer.. sparkles!

missing you loser!

goodmornyt is 2:38am

and all I think about is Chim

blah.blah.blah.blah.

ranting space yet again

And I dont understand by the way you look at me,

why we can't be together

LORD my faith is in You.

Faith is trusting without knowing what will happen next

My definition of FAITH

Sometimes,

you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life

This is so true.

anyways.

I'm gonna try to sleep

maybe if I'm lucky.

I'll dream of him again. :)

sweet dreams..

tata for now.

toodles :)

it's hard to explain the way i feel for you,i can't find the words

& accidentally,

in a heart beat,

in a single flashing,

a throbbing moment,

i fell inlove with Tim

and things were never the same

after that moment in TIMe

A part of him has grown in me

Cause like you said, this is it.

This is life.

And I'm in love with you.

I think that's the only thing

I've ever really been sure of my entire life.

I'll stop loving you when diamonds never sparkle,

and flowers cease to grow,

when thunder doesnt echo,

and rivers do not flow,

when heart no longer wonder,

and hands are never held,

when smiles are only memories,

and hope is never felt,

when trees no longer blossom,

and the stars refuse to shine,

when autumn has no falling leaves,

and winter no longer dies,

when time has no more tomorrows,

and rainbows have no hue,

then I'll stop loving you.

There are some people who meet that somebody

that they can never stop loving,

no matter how hard they try.

I wouldn't expect you to understand that or even believe it,

but trust me,

there are some loves that don't go away.

And maybe that makes them crazy,

but we all should be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity, someone who never lets go,

someone who cherishes you forever.

And i will cherish you forever

throughout life,

you will meet one person who is unlike any other.

this person is the one person you could talk to forever.

they understand you in a way that no one else does or ever could.

this person is your soul mate and your best friend.

don't ever let him go.

i wish i never had.

But if what we had was real

He will come back

He said he'd come back

True love waits

I'LL BE waiting

I promise

When I sleep,

I dream of you

When I wake,

I long to hold you in my armsIf anything our time apart has only made me more certain

That I want to spend my nights by your side

And I want to spend my days with your heart.

--Nicholas Sparks

I feel the same way

But of course

I love my GOD more than him any day

I need GOD i dont need Tim

'but i do love him

BUT, i must wait upon the Lord.

His will is better

than my own

but i know that if i delight myself in Him

He will give me the desires of my heart.

which we all know is Tim..

i love you, you retard :)

you still have me more than ever

your always in my prayers

your always in my heart

ill wait for 4 more years

if you dont love me by then

thats when ill move on

but until then

i am here :)

patiently

waiting

for

my

axawa

my

MOCHI

my once upon a time

RAINBOW

my purple

MONSTER

my

TIMOTHY VIDAL SO

i.love.you.so.

This is beautiful, but only in the most horrendous kind of way

BRAIN IN BLENDER

More brain mush

It appears that I like just writing down whatever comes through my head..

so I guess I will do it again!

No, I didn't make this picture. Please google, don't sue me! I'm begging you! NOOOO, not the lawsuit! No! NOOOO! *hides under the computer desk... Oh snap! That's where all my socks went.. cool!*

Today was pretty funny because when I visited my brother's new high school the first time, I walking in the hallway when all of a sudden, tripped on my shoelace... and fell flat on my face. I guess being clumsy and making terrible first impressions is a family thing.. haha..oh snap wait. Here it comes again..

Every poem that I write, every movie that I watch, every song that I hear, every word that I say, every line that I read, every face that I see, everything...reminds me of you. Frankly, it's sickening. Get out of my head. Political correctness, you have become an idiotic exaggeration of tolerance, and I absolutely loathe you. haha okay that last part starting from the political correctness is all a lie.. I absolutely love you. Enough said.

I'm chatting with Nigel & Lep right now.

Scarlett O'hara Syndrome

maybe Tim is just having a Scarlett O'hara Syndrome? Oh, who am I kiddin.

HE isnt in denial. He just doesn't love me.

darn. ahahah :)

crazy mode..

tinatamad ako tamarin

sinisipag ako ng tamad..

meaning IM BORED :)) LOL

Actually I am currently makins sandwiches

Let's see... We have whole wheat bread, peanut butter, a slice of cheese, jam, gummy bears.... but no human flesh! *le gasp*Perhaps, I just hid it well?

if I'm actually a cannibal, this is your chance to figure it out!

Oh darn I am going crazy huh?

Like OHMEGEE.

i searched "MICHELLE"

on an urban dictioanry and would you believe this?

COPY PASTE AREA.

(CAUTION)

1.one who is amazingly concieted and very crazy. Michelle's tend to be a little out there but that is what makes them so loveable. they are also nymphos. 2.a different dimension.
I was with "michelle" the other day and OMG it is was amazing.

I tried the "michelle" last night and it was the best thing ever.

I wish i could travel to "michelle" like Martin did.

1.A girl who does not try yet always gets attention. 2.Usually musical girl with a modern siren like vibe. / A girl always causing men to "crash" due to her beauty. 3.Highlyly female attractive who could care less

A gorgeous girl who is very sweet and funny. Likes to change her hair a lot.

A shot of pineapple flavored rum mixed with 6 oz Red Bull, and served over ice

OH so now I am a freakin drink?

wuhaw..

so i ended up looking "Timothy"

copy paste area

**caution**

1. a person with a high degree of confidence. :D

2. a.k.a. mr. congeniality whenever you are with him,you never have to worry about getting lost in a far-away place ! he can actually pop a conversation with almost all kinds of people. i guess everybody knows him!

3. means FAST, swift, agile, exhilirating maybe because he's too skinny. ahaha:D you will be surprised with how fast he moves. his swift motions are crazy!

4. undoubtedly kind and sweet. he makes everyone feel good and he treats everyone nicely.

5. eats absolutely more than an average teenager could ever digest. surprisingly, he never gains a pound!

6. he is simply funny and fun to be with. you will never be bored whenever you are with a 'timothy'. just beware because at times, he can be a very very weird geek. haha.

7. smart and charismatic. he has the traits of a great entrepreneur in the future. "timothy" will be surely rich!

COPY PASTE

searched : MISHIE

Mishie a person fun loving careless and never boring. Always sweet to everyone close.

Mishie is a beautiful and cute female dystopian. sexy and cute. and that we like.

COPY PASTE AREA

Tim
Timmo
Timmy
Timmothy
Timo
Timofei
Timage
Timofeo
Timofey
Timon
Timoteo
Timothé
Timothée
Timotheo
Timothey
Timotheus
Tymmothy
Tymon
Tymoteusz
Tymothy
Timmone

SO ayaw ko sa TIM noh?

TIMang na ako :P

tae ahahah

GET OUT OF MY HEAD TIM :D

Due to writer's block, I have nothing interesting to write.

Yeah, as if I ever had anything interesting to write..

For this entire entry,

I have just sitted here and typed whatever

came out of this weird little mind of mine, kapeesh?

So i guess thats it for now.

Buhbeesh :)

10 weeks & 5 days...

2 months & 5 days

----------------------------------------------------------------------------

Oh gosh. It's been that long already.

I'll never forget March 26,2009

The morning you said

YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE

7 days since March 18,2009

when you said i was the most speacialist person

who made your bday the best

7 days after your last

"I LOVE YOU"

one last thing

until now

I still love you

:happy:

tears

TEARS

----------------------------------------------------

It had been a long time in coming,

like the swollen soot clouds of a coming storm,

like the too-ripe fruit ready to fall,

like the sun baking chocolate dirt desperate to bloom.

So she let it come,

the slow wet rising reaching her eyes,

beginning to fall and fall.

---------------------------------------------------------------------

quite poetic huh?

here i go again..

collecting dust

cleaning the cobwebs

WHY AM I ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU

So finally I've started a new blog. I've been wanting to do this for awhile. Just to let it all out.
Honestly, I am thinking of him again. I know I shouldn't be after all he doesn't love me anymore. But, i promised myself i'd wait until after college before I'd forget about him. If he doesn't end up loving me again in the 4 years. I will move on with my life. I know he's perfectly happy right now. So am I. All i want is his happiness. i love being able to see him grow in God. Even if that means for me not being that important in his life anymore. I'll do it. Even if I don't end up with him. Atleast, I wont have any regrets. I just want to prove my love for him. I'm not expecting anything in return. Im contented with being his friend. Actually the pain has already stopped. I am so happy. I love him. I want him in my life. But, i dont need him. I need God. My Father will never leave me nor forsake me.. I will let God's will be done..

I have never loved anyone like this. I've never cared so much about someone. I've never put so much effort in anything. I mean i made him a scrapbook, treasure hunt, burned cd, stuff toy, box of stars with sweet nothings written inside, a bracelet, a necklace, a old letter and too many mushy retarded love letters. I've never ever in my life done that to anyone else. NEVER.. He really inspires me. Even if he doesnt know this but, he makes me so happy. Im glad im still in his life. Im glad we are friends.

I will keep my promise. but, sometimes, i wonder if he just lied that he didn't love me anymore. Hay, but of course thats just a thought which I am not dwelling on if thats what your thinking. Haha. Sorry I just miss him. i really do. But friends will just have to do it for now.

I STILL 101% LOVE YOU TIMOTHY VIDAL SO

GOSH YOU RETARDED BRACEFACED PIG :)

I CANT SEEM TO FALLOUT OF LOVE WITH YOU

NO MATTER WHAT I JUST SEEM TO LOVE YOU MORE

Can you tell me.. What's the secret to this magic trick?
I'd like to try it on you. LOL :)

I love you porkie dorky.

uh.. what am i saying.

:( your right

i need to stop fantazying..

but i cant help it sumtyms,

unlike you.

i stayed inlove.

i never left

i just acted like i did.

i was stupid foolish

and now.

i lost the very thing i cherished so much?..

hay..

thats reality..

your gone.

Im here.

but.

I still have 4 years to prove that I love you.

You dont have to love me back.

I just want to prove it.

i know your happy

so i must be happy too

besides..

God's love is MORE than enough for me.

I just wana show you how much God loves you through me.

:D

i miss you mochi

**now playing : tiger lilly**

letters to you..

[*thinking of you, and only YOU* ]

i gave the letter :)


weeee


ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko.. weeee..


mag kchat kmi ngyn..


nkktuwa nga ee..





parang wala nangyari,, :)


sa wakas may closure..


pero side nya hnde ko pa alm..


pero in God's timing mllman ko din yan.. :)



happy ako :D





pero sad ako for eya..


he cheated on her..


poor bhes..


pasalamat sha christian ako :)


nako..





tom may dvbs ako :D ano oras n d pa ako 2log..


ahahah :)


paano kchat ko siya..


tagal nmn d nag chat ng gnto ult ee..





it feels normal.. hnde akward? :D


tagal ng hnde ko naramdamn yan ee..


pero lapit na aalis ako..





alam mo nmn ako :)


nako.. :D





happy face memem ako :)


to God be the glory :)


He restores :D





i love my God :D





My God leaves me breathless.. speechless.. :)


weeee...

1 month 3 weeks & 1 day

rawr :D








well..

yesterday..

status nya...



moon, i miss the sunshine..

which was what he used to call me..

he was my rainbow..

& i was his sunshine..



im wearing his shirt ryt now..

the "rawr"

btw i miss my princess rawr aa.. :(



kkuwi ko ln galing church

we had practice :D

im COCO & eve :D

weeee how exciting :D
LOVE IT!!!
im gonna try dance minstry..

just trial
i dont know why but i want to?

maybe coz i might grow there?


hay.. :D

its been a month 3 weeks & 1 day

i have no clue why im still counting

tomorrow is the big day..

bbgy ko sknya ang sulat..

anyways yan..



im so bored ryt now..

hay..



maybe ill blog later..

i g2g na...



ay oonga pla..

monday naggala kmi buong tropa..

stephen & him included!

yeah...

kmi ni him d ng usap..

pero..

noong pauwi na..

nagkasabay kmi ng lingon sa isat isa..

hay..



pero im guarding my heart

God's will will provail in my life..

my feelings wont control me..

my heart is focused on God not him..

i love him but..

i rather focus on God..

if kami tlga..

sa huli..

kami padin..

but..



he doesnt love me..

pero..

there is still hope..

God will provide the desires of my heart..

i know..:D

i believe wla ln..



sge2..

gbu!



nytx..

WHOAH

FREEDOM DAY PIC

on freedom day may 16..

during the baptism of the holy spirt

at first i couldnt feel God's presence

& i prayed and asked Him

why i couldn't worship

why i couldn't feel His presence..

out of now where biglang

sumigaw si pastor bong..

na there is someone in the room

who wants to feel God's presence but

somthing is holding them back..

he said

"LET GO, GOD says DO NOT BE AFRAID if that person i must take out of your life for now,

i HAVE a plan for you.. surrender that person to me.."

& thats exactly what i did

& i felt God's presence..

the holy spirt in me..

cleaning my heart..

i even imagined my heart which was black..

turn pure white..

it was amazing..

then when i got home..

out of the blue.

he texted me..

yea.. he texted me..

for the first time in months..

last time we texted was march 31..

when he said GAME OVER

BUT!!!

for the first time..

i wasnt excited

i didnt feel anything..

as in..it was so plain..

it was like yeah i love him..

but God had placed a wall between my feelings..

it was so amazing!

Coz most likely I would be jumpingup & down sa kilig,,

pero HINDE!! wala..

galing ni Lord.

sobrang WHOAH..

mamee swanee & franco read my letter..

they both think i should give it to him

i have been wanting to give this letter to him for a long time now

but, i dont know it just didnt feel like the right time..

& finally the tables have turned

the next time i see him..

im gonna walk up to him & give it to him

i am so relieved that God has guarded my heart!!

Nagskit pa kmi :D

yea EVERYTHING!! kasama ako..

ahaha i was too nervous yan 2loy,,

nalimtan ko ggawn ko ahah :))

pero it wasnt that halata :P

tae tlga.. :D

pero i am so happy & blessed..

coz of freedom day..

iba tlga feeling bring people to God..

seeing them repent..

seeing them give their life to God..

its one of the greatest gifts..

i pray that God will use me..

to be a channel of His never endng never failing LOVE..

i wana show people God's LOVE!!

i want them to know God loves them..

this week..

i have helped to 2 people spiritually!! :D yeah woah dba!
and they were the ones who came to me!

yea i mean skin pa sila lumapit..

dati dba?

si alfred, joeni & c ruth :D

ngyn nmn c batin & c ehm!! yeah woah tlga..

I love sharing & telling them of God's grace of His compassion of His forgiveness

& of course of HIS SALVATION!!

mamee swanee & mamee bujing said im gonna start my training soon :D

to become a youth leader.

can u imagine that?!?

& im gonna dance! & join kids ministry!!

wooooahhhh!!

praise GOD!! FOR HE IS GOOD!! :D
i love my GOD i will serve Him for all of my days :D

THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN HIS!!!!

& during freedom day nag re2gister sa mga tao.. :D

nag fecilitate ako :D yea woah dba?
& kuya cheng asked me to share to batin

kasi we have the same problem..

i mean God used me in so many ways..

also sa skit.. :D

gosh..

ive never been this happy..

i wana tell the world of His love..

i wana spread His word..

i wana worship Him every second of my Life..
No one can express how much He deserves!!

GOSH i love my God with every single breath!! :D

my and this stupid letter

MY BEST FRIEND EYA :D

i love my piggy eya :D

SOULMATE KONG KAMBAL & ME

i love my best friend :D her name is KANG :D love you kakang ko!!! :D


WE ARE WAY TOO CRAZY FOR YOU TO HANDLE
AS IN DEFINE MENTAL RETARDITX

SOMEONE CALL THE DOCTOR
YOU MIGHT CATCH THE
LOVE BIPOLAR
:D

----------------------------------------------------

ive been trying to give him this letter for so long..
but i just dont know how..

hay..

i saw him 2day at fnh..

he was wearing a black jacket wid a white polo... :D

but of course hindi kmi nagppnsinan..

which is for the best
God's will first

but i miss him

but i am controlling myself..

i know better..

PURE FACTOR :D

i hope he gets my letter?..
wahhhh...

worried akO!!!but i TRUST GOD.. :D

so theres no reason to worry :P

hope he likes it..

i need some sleep

so goodnight..

i miss you more & more..

..LORD I AM YOURS..

1 month & 2 weeks

** i cut my hair just to try to forget tim it didnt work**

--its been 1 month & 2 weeks--





hay..





havent blogged for awhile


& stupid mem forgot her password to my other lastest blog


so might as well just settle for this one..





anyways..


eya is sleeping right now


unlike me who never sleeps


well rarely


since yeah..





i still love him so much


but i will follow God's will


& not my own





plus i know he doesn't love me anymore


i dont know why i am still waiting


i stopped flirting wid guys.


as in totally..


all i want is him





hay,,


i want him but i DONT need him


my heart just still longs for him


for the staring game


hay i hate this


its unfair


hhes perfectly okay


while im here


still madly inlove with him


having to bare everyday without him





recently i had a dream about him


(**music playing ILL BE**)





he was wearing a red tshirt :)


he looked so cute


we were just lying on my bed..


i was asleep.


& he was staring at me


then i woke up & we just stood there


hanging by the moment


just smiling like nothing had happened


jus staring into each others eyes


i was so happy so calm so safe..


then..





I WOKE UP..


yea.. that simple yet until now..


i cant get these pictures out of my head..





I already let go..


but, i that doesnt mean i dont love him..


if he really is for me?


and if what we had was real..


one day..


one day..


he will come back..


if he is God's will..


but if not..





well, then i guess i just have to move on.


all i know is that im still waiting..


but while i am waiting i will serve my God


and i wont focus just on him


but he still has my heart..





anyways..


i cant sleep


keep thinking of him..


yeah him..





my once upon a time rainbow..





big girls dont cry..


he will never know how much i cry 4 him


how much i truely care for him


and how much i love him


but i dont care..


i rather love him silently & be out of his life..


than be in his life & see him not grow..





hay..


i just miss timothy vidal so..










yeah him..