letters to you..

[*thinking of you, and only YOU* ]

i gave the letter :)


weeee


ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko.. weeee..


mag kchat kmi ngyn..


nkktuwa nga ee..





parang wala nangyari,, :)


sa wakas may closure..


pero side nya hnde ko pa alm..


pero in God's timing mllman ko din yan.. :)



happy ako :D





pero sad ako for eya..


he cheated on her..


poor bhes..


pasalamat sha christian ako :)


nako..





tom may dvbs ako :D ano oras n d pa ako 2log..


ahahah :)


paano kchat ko siya..


tagal nmn d nag chat ng gnto ult ee..





it feels normal.. hnde akward? :D


tagal ng hnde ko naramdamn yan ee..


pero lapit na aalis ako..





alam mo nmn ako :)


nako.. :D





happy face memem ako :)


to God be the glory :)


He restores :D





i love my God :D





My God leaves me breathless.. speechless.. :)


weeee...

1 month 3 weeks & 1 day

rawr :D








well..

yesterday..

status nya...



moon, i miss the sunshine..

which was what he used to call me..

he was my rainbow..

& i was his sunshine..



im wearing his shirt ryt now..

the "rawr"

btw i miss my princess rawr aa.. :(



kkuwi ko ln galing church

we had practice :D

im COCO & eve :D

weeee how exciting :D
LOVE IT!!!
im gonna try dance minstry..

just trial
i dont know why but i want to?

maybe coz i might grow there?


hay.. :D

its been a month 3 weeks & 1 day

i have no clue why im still counting

tomorrow is the big day..

bbgy ko sknya ang sulat..

anyways yan..



im so bored ryt now..

hay..



maybe ill blog later..

i g2g na...



ay oonga pla..

monday naggala kmi buong tropa..

stephen & him included!

yeah...

kmi ni him d ng usap..

pero..

noong pauwi na..

nagkasabay kmi ng lingon sa isat isa..

hay..



pero im guarding my heart

God's will will provail in my life..

my feelings wont control me..

my heart is focused on God not him..

i love him but..

i rather focus on God..

if kami tlga..

sa huli..

kami padin..

but..



he doesnt love me..

pero..

there is still hope..

God will provide the desires of my heart..

i know..:D

i believe wla ln..



sge2..

gbu!



nytx..

WHOAH

FREEDOM DAY PIC

on freedom day may 16..

during the baptism of the holy spirt

at first i couldnt feel God's presence

& i prayed and asked Him

why i couldn't worship

why i couldn't feel His presence..

out of now where biglang

sumigaw si pastor bong..

na there is someone in the room

who wants to feel God's presence but

somthing is holding them back..

he said

"LET GO, GOD says DO NOT BE AFRAID if that person i must take out of your life for now,

i HAVE a plan for you.. surrender that person to me.."

& thats exactly what i did

& i felt God's presence..

the holy spirt in me..

cleaning my heart..

i even imagined my heart which was black..

turn pure white..

it was amazing..

then when i got home..

out of the blue.

he texted me..

yea.. he texted me..

for the first time in months..

last time we texted was march 31..

when he said GAME OVER

BUT!!!

for the first time..

i wasnt excited

i didnt feel anything..

as in..it was so plain..

it was like yeah i love him..

but God had placed a wall between my feelings..

it was so amazing!

Coz most likely I would be jumpingup & down sa kilig,,

pero HINDE!! wala..

galing ni Lord.

sobrang WHOAH..

mamee swanee & franco read my letter..

they both think i should give it to him

i have been wanting to give this letter to him for a long time now

but, i dont know it just didnt feel like the right time..

& finally the tables have turned

the next time i see him..

im gonna walk up to him & give it to him

i am so relieved that God has guarded my heart!!

Nagskit pa kmi :D

yea EVERYTHING!! kasama ako..

ahaha i was too nervous yan 2loy,,

nalimtan ko ggawn ko ahah :))

pero it wasnt that halata :P

tae tlga.. :D

pero i am so happy & blessed..

coz of freedom day..

iba tlga feeling bring people to God..

seeing them repent..

seeing them give their life to God..

its one of the greatest gifts..

i pray that God will use me..

to be a channel of His never endng never failing LOVE..

i wana show people God's LOVE!!

i want them to know God loves them..

this week..

i have helped to 2 people spiritually!! :D yeah woah dba!
and they were the ones who came to me!

yea i mean skin pa sila lumapit..

dati dba?

si alfred, joeni & c ruth :D

ngyn nmn c batin & c ehm!! yeah woah tlga..

I love sharing & telling them of God's grace of His compassion of His forgiveness

& of course of HIS SALVATION!!

mamee swanee & mamee bujing said im gonna start my training soon :D

to become a youth leader.

can u imagine that?!?

& im gonna dance! & join kids ministry!!

wooooahhhh!!

praise GOD!! FOR HE IS GOOD!! :D
i love my GOD i will serve Him for all of my days :D

THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN HIS!!!!

& during freedom day nag re2gister sa mga tao.. :D

nag fecilitate ako :D yea woah dba?
& kuya cheng asked me to share to batin

kasi we have the same problem..

i mean God used me in so many ways..

also sa skit.. :D

gosh..

ive never been this happy..

i wana tell the world of His love..

i wana spread His word..

i wana worship Him every second of my Life..
No one can express how much He deserves!!

GOSH i love my God with every single breath!! :D

my and this stupid letter

MY BEST FRIEND EYA :D

i love my piggy eya :D

SOULMATE KONG KAMBAL & ME

i love my best friend :D her name is KANG :D love you kakang ko!!! :D


WE ARE WAY TOO CRAZY FOR YOU TO HANDLE
AS IN DEFINE MENTAL RETARDITX

SOMEONE CALL THE DOCTOR
YOU MIGHT CATCH THE
LOVE BIPOLAR
:D

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ive been trying to give him this letter for so long..
but i just dont know how..

hay..

i saw him 2day at fnh..

he was wearing a black jacket wid a white polo... :D

but of course hindi kmi nagppnsinan..

which is for the best
God's will first

but i miss him

but i am controlling myself..

i know better..

PURE FACTOR :D

i hope he gets my letter?..
wahhhh...

worried akO!!!but i TRUST GOD.. :D

so theres no reason to worry :P

hope he likes it..

i need some sleep

so goodnight..

i miss you more & more..

..LORD I AM YOURS..

1 month & 2 weeks

** i cut my hair just to try to forget tim it didnt work**

--its been 1 month & 2 weeks--





hay..





havent blogged for awhile


& stupid mem forgot her password to my other lastest blog


so might as well just settle for this one..





anyways..


eya is sleeping right now


unlike me who never sleeps


well rarely


since yeah..





i still love him so much


but i will follow God's will


& not my own





plus i know he doesn't love me anymore


i dont know why i am still waiting


i stopped flirting wid guys.


as in totally..


all i want is him





hay,,


i want him but i DONT need him


my heart just still longs for him


for the staring game


hay i hate this


its unfair


hhes perfectly okay


while im here


still madly inlove with him


having to bare everyday without him





recently i had a dream about him


(**music playing ILL BE**)





he was wearing a red tshirt :)


he looked so cute


we were just lying on my bed..


i was asleep.


& he was staring at me


then i woke up & we just stood there


hanging by the moment


just smiling like nothing had happened


jus staring into each others eyes


i was so happy so calm so safe..


then..





I WOKE UP..


yea.. that simple yet until now..


i cant get these pictures out of my head..





I already let go..


but, i that doesnt mean i dont love him..


if he really is for me?


and if what we had was real..


one day..


one day..


he will come back..


if he is God's will..


but if not..





well, then i guess i just have to move on.


all i know is that im still waiting..


but while i am waiting i will serve my God


and i wont focus just on him


but he still has my heart..





anyways..


i cant sleep


keep thinking of him..


yeah him..





my once upon a time rainbow..





big girls dont cry..


he will never know how much i cry 4 him


how much i truely care for him


and how much i love him


but i dont care..


i rather love him silently & be out of his life..


than be in his life & see him not grow..





hay..


i just miss timothy vidal so..










yeah him..