i cannot get this image of me and you out of my mind.
nobody around us had any idea of the conversation going on.
even you had no idea how much this meant to me.
you hurt me more than anyone else.
you have no idea how much i care/d about you.
you of all people taught me a lot about relationships.
you taught me that there is a such thing as finding faults beautiful.
everything about you is beautiful. and you have no idea.
your stupid faces.
i can picture every single face that you make for everything.
nobody around us had any idea of the conversation going on.
even you had no idea how much this meant to me.
you hurt me more than anyone else.
you have no idea how much i care/d about you.
you of all people taught me a lot about relationships.
you taught me that there is a such thing as finding faults beautiful.
everything about you is beautiful. and you have no idea.
your stupid faces.
i can picture every single face that you make for everything.
still.
your face when i make a good joke about you.
your face when i'd slap you out of the blue.
your face when you're making fun of me.
your face when you were about to suffocate me.
your face when you are REALLY laughing.
(the true kind of laugh, not the fake.)
your face in the most intimate moments.
your face when we actually had serious conversations.
everything.
your face when i make a good joke about you.
your face when i'd slap you out of the blue.
your face when you're making fun of me.
your face when you were about to suffocate me.
your face when you are REALLY laughing.
(the true kind of laugh, not the fake.)
your face in the most intimate moments.
your face when we actually had serious conversations.
everything.
i can close my eyes and they all come to me.
i don't even have to close my eyes and they'll come to me.
i loved being with you.
i loved your sweaty hands.
i loved how you'd take pictures of me when i wasn't looking.
i loved the way your nose wrinkles when your about to sneeze.
i loved how you actually put thought into my christmas present.
i loved how you'd carry my letters to you in your wallet.
i loved when it was time for you to go & you'd say "hide me".
i loved when you'd make that face
i don't even have to close my eyes and they'll come to me.
i loved being with you.
i loved your sweaty hands.
i loved how you'd take pictures of me when i wasn't looking.
i loved the way your nose wrinkles when your about to sneeze.
i loved how you actually put thought into my christmas present.
i loved how you'd carry my letters to you in your wallet.
i loved when it was time for you to go & you'd say "hide me".
i loved when you'd make that face
(the face that says hide me under your bed i dont wana go home).
i loved when i would cry you would hold me & wouldn't say anything.
i loved the way you stared at me.
i loved doing crazy stuff with you.
i loved beating you up.
i loved when you beat me up.
i loved waking up to a good morning text every day.
i loved when you were just my best friend.
i loved when i wouldn't hug you once, and you told me to never do that again.
i loved when just after you left it hadn't even been 1min and you already textd me that you missed me.
i loved when you called me "yours".
i loved how you tutored me and knew i was staring at you but you found ways to get my attention.
i loved when you take me home.
i loved watching you eat.
i loved how you'd sneak brownies in my locker.
i loved singing rock songs with you.
i loved our first kiss and how it took you two hours to finally do it.
i loved how you told me how beautiful i was.
i loved when you kissed me in the rain.
i loved the first i got mad at you & you made me a big sorry note & waited for 2hours outside my house.
i loved the way we'd both smile right of a kiss.
i loved how you came to my house and took care of me when I got sick.
i loved when you use to call me and i would find excuses to get off the phone with you.
(i would never want to do that now.)
i loved your onfireness for God.
i loved when we write really sweet cheesy love notes like 5 times a day.
i loved giving you big hugs.
i loved when i kissed chokolate cake off your face.
i loved when id walk on aline pretending i was on a tight rope & id say "what if i fall" your answer was always "I'll always be here to catch you"
(oh how i wish what you were still here)
i loved how you look when you had a runny nose.
(you were so CUTE! red nose & all)
i loved when you gimme your jacket when i was cold.
i loved how you loved yeba.
i loved how your voice sounded.
i loved how you would look me straight in the eyes and tell me how much you loved me.
i loved how i forced you to watch high school musical with me bcoz of my little brother.
i loved how when my nose was frozen every time we watch a movie at the mall you'd give me eskimo kisses.
i loved the moments i'i turned around and you were right behind me.
i loved how you dressed..
i loved talking to you in between our classes.
i loved bullying each other.
i loved the pictures you used to draw me.
i loved how you were so smart how you would analyze the world around you.
i loved how you'd pick me up when i'd did something clumsy.
i loved how you got along with my family so well.
i loved how you would write me poems or say something poetic & make me melt.
i loved how you would walk me across the street.
i loved how you talked about God and inspired me.
i loved how you understood me when i said nothing at all.
i loved how you'd press your cheeks against mine for no reason at all.
i loved how you'd hold me really tight and whisper to me you didnt want to go home.
i loved how you'd care about other people's feelings.
i loved how over protective you were.
i loved how you'd come to my house everyday.
i loved how you'd get mad at me and then say sorry even if it wasnt your fault coz you know i have problems with pride.
i loved how you'd tell me your secrets.
i loved how you trusted me.
i loved how you'd act crazy with your friends.
i loved how you would aply scientific terms to everyday stuff which sometimes got on my nerves. haha
i loved everything about you.
and not a day has gone by where i haven't thought of you.
or wanted you.
and i know it was my fault that your gone but i just cant seem to get over it,
and i was finally starting to get better completely without you in my life.
you should've just let me know you didn't feel the same way.
it would've been a lot easier.
no sorry thats not true im glad you told me the truth.
the thing is even when you said you didn't love me anymore it felt that
that very moment i began to love you even more.
and i miss you so much.
and i don't just miss you because you're gone now.
i just miss you.
knowing that we're not anything.
and the fact that we see each other & dont talk
it gives me that stupid feeling in my heart/stomach.
its like what happened between us never happened.
its like you completely forgot everything.
you'll never realize how special you were to me.
if i could go back, i would.
oh this dilemma.
i am feeling the never ending swell of memories heave and sigh around me.
Threatening to drown me in sentiments and hysteria, I remember.
Remember what?
I remember everything, you forgot so easily.
I'm just this distressed princess waiting for you to come home.
i loved when i would cry you would hold me & wouldn't say anything.
i loved the way you stared at me.
i loved doing crazy stuff with you.
i loved beating you up.
i loved when you beat me up.
i loved waking up to a good morning text every day.
i loved when you were just my best friend.
i loved when i wouldn't hug you once, and you told me to never do that again.
i loved when just after you left it hadn't even been 1min and you already textd me that you missed me.
i loved when you called me "yours".
i loved how you tutored me and knew i was staring at you but you found ways to get my attention.
i loved when you take me home.
i loved watching you eat.
i loved how you'd sneak brownies in my locker.
i loved singing rock songs with you.
i loved our first kiss and how it took you two hours to finally do it.
i loved how you told me how beautiful i was.
i loved when you kissed me in the rain.
i loved the first i got mad at you & you made me a big sorry note & waited for 2hours outside my house.
i loved the way we'd both smile right of a kiss.
i loved how you came to my house and took care of me when I got sick.
i loved when you use to call me and i would find excuses to get off the phone with you.
(i would never want to do that now.)
i loved your onfireness for God.
i loved when we write really sweet cheesy love notes like 5 times a day.
i loved giving you big hugs.
i loved when i kissed chokolate cake off your face.
i loved when id walk on aline pretending i was on a tight rope & id say "what if i fall" your answer was always "I'll always be here to catch you"
(oh how i wish what you were still here)
i loved how you look when you had a runny nose.
(you were so CUTE! red nose & all)
i loved when you gimme your jacket when i was cold.
i loved how you loved yeba.
i loved how your voice sounded.
i loved how you would look me straight in the eyes and tell me how much you loved me.
i loved how i forced you to watch high school musical with me bcoz of my little brother.
i loved how when my nose was frozen every time we watch a movie at the mall you'd give me eskimo kisses.
i loved the moments i'i turned around and you were right behind me.
i loved how you dressed..
i loved talking to you in between our classes.
i loved bullying each other.
i loved the pictures you used to draw me.
i loved how you were so smart how you would analyze the world around you.
i loved how you'd pick me up when i'd did something clumsy.
i loved how you got along with my family so well.
i loved how you would write me poems or say something poetic & make me melt.
i loved how you would walk me across the street.
i loved how you talked about God and inspired me.
i loved how you understood me when i said nothing at all.
i loved how you'd press your cheeks against mine for no reason at all.
i loved how you'd hold me really tight and whisper to me you didnt want to go home.
i loved how you'd care about other people's feelings.
i loved how over protective you were.
i loved how you'd come to my house everyday.
i loved how you'd get mad at me and then say sorry even if it wasnt your fault coz you know i have problems with pride.
i loved how you'd tell me your secrets.
i loved how you trusted me.
i loved how you'd act crazy with your friends.
i loved how you would aply scientific terms to everyday stuff which sometimes got on my nerves. haha
i loved everything about you.
and not a day has gone by where i haven't thought of you.
or wanted you.
and i know it was my fault that your gone but i just cant seem to get over it,
and i was finally starting to get better completely without you in my life.
you should've just let me know you didn't feel the same way.
it would've been a lot easier.
no sorry thats not true im glad you told me the truth.
the thing is even when you said you didn't love me anymore it felt that
that very moment i began to love you even more.
and i miss you so much.
and i don't just miss you because you're gone now.
i just miss you.
knowing that we're not anything.
and the fact that we see each other & dont talk
it gives me that stupid feeling in my heart/stomach.
its like what happened between us never happened.
its like you completely forgot everything.
you'll never realize how special you were to me.
if i could go back, i would.
oh this dilemma.
i am feeling the never ending swell of memories heave and sigh around me.
Threatening to drown me in sentiments and hysteria, I remember.
Remember what?
I remember everything, you forgot so easily.
I'm just this distressed princess waiting for you to come home.
